When Nugget, Mike and I sat down to start putting together this podcast, our first thoughts were of course “Well, what do we name it?” We mulled over a lot of different ideas. Our first attempt at podcasting was with a podcast that we called “Suck Today’s Dick – or, “STD”, for short. This little experiment was our attempt to portray a small cross-section of American youth. Wait . . . That’s bullshit. It was five friends rambling. We got the name from the movie Pineapple Express, so I can’t claim that it had any real, true meaning. What it was though was five friends who got together and shared their views on various topics. Topics that get people riled up. The experiment was social in nature, and could’ve been something big, but it only made it to two and a half episodes.
What killed STD was fear. Fear that people would know who we really were, what we really stood for. That we were living, breathing sexual beings with opinions and attitudes that may sometimes slide away from the tip of the bell curve. What killed us was the worry of other people’s’ insecurities, other people’s’ fears.
So, when Nugget, Mike and I sat down to come up with another podcast, we had to think some things over. What was our demographic? Who were we marketing this to? We wanted to stay away from age and lead more to social status. It’s clear that “younger generation” are a lot more progressive than the generation before; but, even that progression; we feel is becoming a problem. One thing that we did know was that if were going to follow through with this, there would be no censorship. There would be no “fixing it in post”. Whatever we said would be published, raw and in its entirety. It was agreed that if there was something we felt we shouldn’t say, don’t say it.
The name “Toe on the Trigger” started out as joke between the three of us. Whenever we heard people complaining, whenever somebody would get overly sensitive about a topic, or somebody who had just censored themselves to a level of boring, we would say “Barrel in the mouth, toe on the trigger”. We would often mime the action of loading any number of different weapons – whether it be a pistol, a shotgun, and even a cannon at one point – and firing them upon ourselves. This would represent the act of cleansing ourselves from the utter waste of time we felt we were enduring.
As we were doing the original prep for the show, we reached a point where we hit a wall – I don’t quite remember what it was – and Mike said something about “Toe on the Trigger”. Nugget immediately chimed in with “Hey! why don’t we call our podcast that!” We immediately loved it, even though we went through the motions of putting on our list of possibilities, we knew it was right. After awhile of thinking of really stupid names, we decided that it, indeed, was the best name. The next question was, of course: How do we integrate a podcast into this name, and how do we portray what it means? We had to own it.
Obviously, one of the very first concerns that popped up out of this was whether or not other people would find the name too . . . offensive (There’s that word) to even pay attention to. What if people thought it was glorifying suicide? We asked around on different forums; friends, family and so forth. After many mixed reviews, we came to the conclusion that if we were worried about what people thought about the name of the podcast, not only did we have no business making the damn thing, but the people who cared wouldn’t be our target audience to begin with.
And that is really the reason we chose to stick with the name. There is this theme in society today, especially the media, that everybody needs to be politically correct. That feelings need to be spared, that everybody should live wrapped in cotton and protected from things that hurt. This is not how change occurs. People are being protected from . . . Well, people! From themselves. With or without their permission! Freedom of expression is slowly eroding away. It is being replaced by this imposter that proclaims freedom of expression toward the trends of babying varying diversities, while bashing those that express themselves differently. Labels like “homophobe”,”racist”, and “bigot” are thrown onto people who simply have a differing belief. This causes people to stay silent and hide from their opinions, falling again into the herd; to be led to slaughter.
There is a disease in society right now. This disease of hypersensitivity. The point of TotT is not to desensitize people, but to make them question their sensitivities.I can only speak for myself in this, but I would like to think that my goal in TotT is to to question the so-called “moral absolutes” that we’re told we must live by. Toe on the Trigger is really a reminder. A reminder that at any given moment, you can choose to pull that trigger to blow society out the back of your head and start over. A fresh slate. It is an attempt to get you to ask what you feel and what you believe. I belief that it’s okay to be offensive. It’s okay to be offended. The problem is, most people don’t know why they’re offended. They have been so bombarded by the media, by peers, etc. that they don’t base the feelings off of actual experiences. I don’t really want to offend, I really just want to know why you’re offended.
In reality, our slogan “Your toe’s on the trigger, we’re here to keep you from pulling it,” is really more so implied in the physical sense, I guess. Metaphorically, I would say it’s more or less encouraged. I say “Why not pull the trigger?” In order to be reborn, one must first die. So, the choice is yours. Will you pull it?
“The world is like a ride in an amusement park, and when you choose to go on it you think it’s real because that’s how powerful our minds are. The ride goes up and down, around and around, it has thrills and chills, and it’s very brightly colored, and it’s very loud, and it’s fun for a while. Many people have been on the ride a long time, and they begin to wonder, ‘Hey, is this real, or is this just a ride?’ And other people have remembered, and they come back to us and say, ‘Hey, don’t worry; don’t be afraid, ever, because this is just a ride.’ And we … kill those people.
‘Shut him up! I’ve got a lot invested in this ride, shut him up! Look at my furrows of worry, look at my big bank account, and my family. This has to be real.’
It’s just a ride. But we always kill the good guys who try and tell us that, you ever notice that? And let the demons run amok … But it doesn’t matter, because it’s just a ride. And we can change it any time we want. It’s only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings of money. Just a simple choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as one. Here’s what we can do to change the world, right now, to a better ride. Take all that money we spend on weapons and defenses each year and instead spend it feeding and clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would pay for many times over, not one human being excluded, and we could explore space, together, both inner and outer, forever, in peace.”
– Bill Hicks
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